Day Three: eight ways to win my heart.

1. When a guy looks at me and smiles in a way he doesn't for other girls
2. When a guy shows confidence in what he does or says. Different from straight-up cockiness..
3. When I get to see a side of a guy that he never would show to someone who's not close to him...showing me a side of him that he doesn't open up to others; things that hurt him and bring him down*
4. When I see how genuinely caring and sweet a guy is
5. When a guy has humor, and isn't quick to get angry...someone with a really good personality
6. When a guy does something really really amazingly sweet and gets me to think, “Wow, I never knew someone would do something this big for me,” giving me that warm fuzzy feeling.*
7. Taking care of matters, showing responsibility and gaining my trust.*
8. When I see a guy with a good heart and makes me want to become a better person.*

* = the ones I'm in agreement with Nari on

Day Two: nine things about myself.

1. It makes me really happy when I can get someone to laugh or smile

2. I've realized I'm so blessed to have such amazing people as my friends

3. I get easily happy...and easily sad -_-

4. The thing about myself that annoys me a lot is when I really want to talk to someone but I can't think of anything to say..so it's just silent and I feel like the other person thinks that I'm a very awkward person

5. I shall admit it here that...I regret not doing driver's education earlier. And the fact that I refused to do it only because I didn't want to drive makes me want to bang my head on the wall

6. I wonder a lot about what would happen if I went to an all-asian school

7. I think about life a lot. A lot more than I should.

8. When things go bad, I tend to over-analyze and get stressed out. And since things are 70% going bad for me, I'm mostly always stressed out

9. I have a bad bad bad bad bad propensity to easily give out my heart to people. And I get hurt a lot in the process...but I still never learn -_-. Maybe God gave me a big heart so I could share it with tons of people, HAHA

10. My favorite foods are Italian and Korean :))

Oh, you know, you know, you know, I'd never ask you to change
If perfect's what you're searching for then just stay the same
So, don't even bother asking if you look ok
You know I'll say
When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Because you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while...

Day One: ten things I want to say to ten different people.

Nari: I saw you on Sunday but I miss you lots and I want to talk to youu :( Had fun talking to you for like 2839492783 minutes at Santana Row hehe :) You're my treasured unniii hehe and we better have our 18th bday party togetherrr! Can't waittt

Serin: Eehsangnam!!! HAHA, car ride today was funn :) gotta brush up on my Korean slang skills, eh? And I'm glad you didn't hear me play and "break the conductor's back" today loll. Seems like nobody in the back rows heard me, phew. And PS it's an elephant, not a rhino! haha

Chris H: Gonna be so nice to me that it's gonna be neuggeeheh, huh? Can't wait lolll. P.S. You're still one helllll of a flirt! PLAYAAA haha

Stephen: You made me laugh so hard today in HAP class... "My SillyBandz are cuter than yours." "So what?! MINE are having SEX!!!!!" LOL. You totally yelled that out loud and everyone looked at you. Don't deny the truth fool hahaha

Kevin H: I still feel SO freaking badddd. I didn't know you were actually going to visit me...I told you to come but I didn't really think you would? Sorry x 12938. Gomenasai...now you're going to go off to college and I didn't even get to see you before you left...siiighh.... :(.

Iris: I'm still shocked by the fact that you wear size 3 shoes. And I want to see your boyfriend in real life. And I think you're really the most adorable sophomore ever. And I wish I had an older brother :((

Jason M: You can do ittt ! You're seriously one of the chillest guys I know. Stay cooll :) And yeah, if we got in we'd definitely be reppin' the ktown hotties for sure hahaha you're too funny chingoo

Jenny: Can't wait for KOREAAA next summer! Gonna be funnn :D:D:D It sucks that I feel like the school year's already over...although it's only been the 4th day....-_-

Jae: Wassup men! Glad you got your blue turtle back haha. You crack me up way too much :D andd you suckk for not going to Santana !

Yoonbin: STOP CALLING IT A MODELLING PHOTOSHOOT! Haha. When I first met you I thought you were weird and I didn't want to be your friend. (LOL) But somehow we got to talk over summer and now you're one of my friends. Strange how life works haha

Mann I just realized this is composed mostly of my NVC seniorsss. I miss themm :(((((

So sad I'll 99% miss lock-in...

Day One: ten things you want to say to ten different people.
Day Two: nine things about yourself.
Day Three: eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: four turn offs.
Day Eight: three turn ons.
Day Nine: two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: one confession

'Cause the 30-day one was way too long for me to handle -_-

Had a looong talk with Nari at Santana Row today...in the women's lounge (aka bathroom) LOL. Talked about lots of stuff...pretty much just life in general, and what our world has become nowadays... Off on a side note: I was in the car with my mom driving today, and I was looking out the window when suddenly I just thought about marriage...and...something in my heart told me that I want to marry someone who's Christian and who will treat me good, and only have eyes for me. Someone with a genuine, kind heart.

And I don't care if he's butt-ugly just as long as he loves me...

Is it selfish to say that I want to marry someone that loves me more than I love him?

Sigh. Just another thing in life...

a few of my sarangsss

babolat5875: holy
ijasonmin: QQ
babolat5875: crap
babolat5875: i just fell asleep
babolat5875: for 5 min
naNArikim: go sleep
freehugsday: go sleep
ijasonmin: and ur gay
naNArikim: -high give-
ijasonmin: and go sleep
freehugsday: -high five-
naNArikim: -high five-
naNArikim: LOLLLL
ijasonmin: LOLOL
freehugsday: hahahaha
babolat5875: LOL
babolat5875: high give
ijasonmin: NARRAAYY FAIIL

why are we so cute LOL

Characterized by constant capriciousness, we people are known to constantly flit from dwelling remorsefully in the past to looking solely towards the future, since we already find ourselves dealing with the present. This, as one may expect, causes our present lives to be muddled. Living in the memories of the past acts as quicksand, making it invariably difficult to move forward and seek new opportunities. Looking too far ahead into the future however, also has its downfalls, as doing so acts as a leash around our necks, dragging us at an incredulous speed. This is ultimately one of the components to the overwhelming feeling we all get when constricted with worry and stress.

What's most frustrating is that there's no one to blame.
We're shackled to our own misery.

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Strangely...I'm at peace.

For now.

Senior Banquet

Senior Banquet yesterday was a complete success!

Our long hours of working at church for 4-5 hours for...about 5 to 6 times the past few weeks really paid off... our hand-painted backdrops looked really awesome, and everything was just so...amazing!

Everyone was fatigued yesterday from running up and down the stairs to fulfill all of the super seniors' needs...aka figuring out who wanted alfredo pasta and who wanted the red sauce / figuring out who wanted a pina colada and who wanted a shirley temple / taking up dishes / taking down dishes to wash / changing into our dance outfits / then changing into our formal outfits, etc.

But all in all, the super seniors looked and said that they were really pleased, :).

The performances were awesome, and everything was just absolutely heavenly.

Apart from making the super seniors happy however, I'm really glad that we had all this time (setting up for the banquet) because I got a lot closer to all myyy seniors!

I couldn't help but scoff when the super seniors said things like "Oh, there's no class like us" because...seriously, who are they kidding? MY class is the best!

I love my NVC '11ers :))))

retreat

Came back from retreat today, and definitely so relieved that I chose to go to this 2010 Reality retreat instead of the music camp I had been tentative about.

Pros:
- Getting so much closer to all the senior girls that went, and some of the senior boys
- Getting to be away from home for 4 days
- Being one of the few to have had good prayer time
- Eating lots of junk food brought by Agnes (omg...Cookies and Creme Kisses...<3)
- Owning Yoonbin, Jae, and Justin in basketball with Nari and Adrienne. (Even though technically we got a 4-point head start, hahaha).
- Listening to Pastor Richard's sermons with his beastly analogies/examples
- Small group time with the senior girls
- Sleeping with Nari, HEHEHHEHE
- Sleeping at the top of our janky bunkbed with no side-support, and Nari having to sleep on the edge :)
- Stealing all the blankets (unintentionally) while sleeping with Nari
- Scaring the senior boys who were in their cabin with Rachel and Jeewon, HAHA. Peter's face= forever priceless.
- Winning 2nd place for skits!
- Peter's acting (as a girl) LOL
- Peter's fail at rapping
- Adrienne's pwnage at rapping
- Jason's homo-phobia (especially when Peter was around)
- Getting to see a shooting star on the 2nd to last night
- Campfire with a couple of the senior boys and girls on the last night
- Owning Tony in BS poker with Rachel, Nari, Jensine, and Kevin
- Watching Jae dance and sing to California Girls
- Pwning Sam in knockout for basketball
- Laughing with Nari for no reason
- Having deep talks with a few senior girls/boys
- Peter modelling the horrendous girls' shirts in a size Small -_-
- Rachel's blonde moments (i.e. "Does warm air rise?" "Do animals have races?")
- Nari being my other half and being twinnies <3
- Eating gooood ddukboki and ramen on the last night
- Feeling like a little kid again playing on the swings on the last day (today)
- etc!

Cons:
- Getting the suckier cabin
- A few of the senior girls' tendencies to slap/touch/harrass my butt
- People having tension with one another
- Some of the senior boys and girls not getting along with one another well
- Nari snoring in my ear on the 2nd to last night, HAHA (still sarang you though)
- PJ constantly telling retreat staff that there were demons around and retreat staff sharing that information with us... -_-
- Senior boys leaving one of our cabin windows open on the last night so it was freezing and Nari and I went into Misun's sleeping bag LOL...then waking up at 5:30am to slip into our own sleeping bags

All in all...I adore the fact that I got to get closer to many of my friends at this retreat.
<3
I love my church friends so much.
Church friends = trust, faith, and love all in one beautiful mixture

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Dear _,

Hm... well, you were my first "boyfriend"...but truthfully, I didn't really have strong feelings for you. Yes, you were tall at 5 feet 11 inches, extremely intelligent, cute, and to top it all off, you had dimples. But I think the main reason I found within myself an attraction for you was only because of the fact that most of my friends had a crush on you.

You see, girls have the propensity to like what others like. And that's just what happened. You were the source of their desire, and I decided I wanted to have you for myself, too.

One day, you drove all the way to my house and left me a dozen roses and a card.

"Dear J," it read, "Will you be my girlfriend? Love, _"

I thought it was awfully sweet, and we became a couple...for a few months. I think we hardly counted as a couple though...during the...3-4 months(?) I was with you, we only saw each other what, three times? And we didn't talk at all through the phone. Our three dates were just awkward. We had nothing in common, and it seemed like your interest was only in motorcycles...

Truth be told, I was bored of you by our second date. I think it was after a month that I tried to break up with you, but you had clung on, telling me to think about it for a while and change my mind. Being the weak-hearted person I am, I stayed with you for...2 more months after that failed attempt.

Long story short, during those two months, we met once and you were my first kiss, and vice versa. It wasn't special...at all. I was disappointed, but what had I expected? I never told you, but. Honestly. You are horrible at kissing...I hope you got better after you got three more girlfriends after me.

Anyways...now three years have gone by, and you're going off to Berkeley! I was surprised by your sudden instant message a few weeks ago, when your box suddenly appeared on my screen. And then immediately, after you had explained why you decided to just impetuously message me, I was pretty amused by your flirtatious remarks such as: "Hmm...I was wondering what would have happened if we had still stayed together?" "I see you're still pretty cute :P" and etc...

News flash: I happened to notice you stopped your flirting when I casually mentioned how I know you currently have a girlfriend. One more frivolous remark to me, and I'm going to send her a Facebook message telling her to watch out for you. -_-. You're such a flirt...

But other than that, you're just an acquaintance to me. I think you're too dull for me to instill within me a desire to be close friends with you... Sorryyyyy -_-.

From,

J

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Dear _,

You...were my first legitimate boyfriend. I honestly thought you were the sweetest, cutest, best-looking boy I knew...haha. Of course I was biased, but that's the kind of effect you had on me. Yet whenever I told you these things, I don't think you ever believed me.

Our relationship went off with a bang, and you never really asked me the famous words, "Will you go out with me," but I didn't care to hear those petty little words. Since when was a relationship based on saying those words anyways?

Although just like my first boyfriend, I could barely see you, the initial few months of our relationship were my happiest months. We talked every night on the phone without skipping a day, and we would constantly talk on AIM...

But I would see you maybe once a month? Or not even...

Well, as most long-distance relationships go, the miles between us took a toll, and stupid fights would occur. Most of them were about not being able to see each other...

The distance really made our relationship difficult, and this was when I finally realized that long-distance relationships definitely do not work for me...and definitely did not work for you.

Misunderstandings would constantly occur, and one night, I couldn't hold it in any longer. For a while, it had seemed to me that I was the only one out of the two of us that tried to make our relationship work. I would frequently write you letters, give you small gifts, drive long distances just to see you...and all I got back in return were your words of thanks, and one letter.

I, being a junior, was amidst one of the most busiest points in my life, and you seemed to take it in consideration...but didn't do anything about it.

During our relationship, the first few events that came up was our end-of-the-year orchestra concert, then our benefit concert, then your winter formal. My parents drove me an hour and 15 minutes after my difficult persuasion. It was definitely memorable...but in March, you couldn't come to my Junior Prom because you told me your mom refused to give you a ride.

Then in January, it was my birthday. I got a meager text from you wishing me a happy birthday.

After lots of complaints about how we never got to see each other, one day I paid my friend 20 bucks to drive me to your city to watch a movie with you.

Even though it was getting blatant that I was doing all the giving, I really, solemnly, didn't care. I still loved you like no other.

But struggles in our relationship kept emerging...suddenly, our calls became less and less, and our talks died out. Amidst it all, two of my friends were suicidal, and my emotional state became precarious, and unstable.

Then one Sunday, I found out you weren't wearing the bracelet I had meticulously made for you...and I blew up. Which then instigated you to break up with me. Which then led me to become depressed, unable to concentrate, and fail my Biology AP test which was the next day.

Two months after the breakup, I was still having withdrawal symptoms. I had told my friends that I was over you...but I wasn't.

I thought about you every single day. Not obsessively, but always just as passing thoughts. Just like wispy clouds turning into vapor...your name would form into my mind, and then dissipate.

Nights were especially difficult for me. Whenever I thought about you too much, I would get a throbbing ache in my chest, and I wouldn't be able to eat or sleep, and when I did sleep, I was always crying...

The fact that it seemed like you had already gotten over me made it that much worse. I couldn't understand why you could get over me so easily, just like that...when I couldn't. Multiple boys had expressed their interest in me, but I couldn't stop comparing them to you.

I had told one of my friends about this attachment I had for you, and she simply stated, "J, maybe you've just only been thinking about the good points of the relationship, and not the bad ones."

I had grown so accustomed to seeing past all your faults, that in my mind, I had really made you perfect in my eyes.

Now that I've opened my eyes, I realize that I had been too naive. My love for you had been genuine, but yours for me seemed to have been fleeting, and I guess your "I love you"s had just been to comfort me, not meant with sincerity.

It took me to long to get over you because, I had clung to the hope that maybe you still did care for me, that maybe you still did have some love left for me, that maybe you would be mine once again, that maybe, maybe, maybe...

And then recently, I came back to reality. That you were long over me was disclosed to me, and I finally let go of my hope.

You were truly a special person to me...and even now, when other boys try to gain my attention, I don't find myself having any special feelings. One boy has gained my curiosity, but that's the extent of my interest.

I'm glad we're still friends though, and I hope one day I can meet a boy who I will love as much as I ever loved you. And...I hope you meet your soul mate as well.

I truly do believe I loved you...unlike my first boyfriend, who was just a mere plaything.

And I still do love you...but now, as a friend. You're truly a good friend worth keeping, and I hope I never, ever, ever lose you.

Love,

J

-_-

Interesting conversations from August 1st:

watacooolsn: why are you even home alone now!
freehugsday: because my family ditched me -_-
watacooolsn: lolwtf
watacooolsn: for what :O
freehugsday: i have no idea!!
freehugsday: );
watacooolsn: that is quite sad
watacooolsn: hahaha
watacooolsn: play maplestory with me
watacooolsn: :D
freehugsday: heckn o_-_----_
watacooolsn: WHY
freehugsday: because
freehugsday: that game
freehugsday: is for
freehugsday: lame people
freehugsday: :D
watacooolsn: IMPOSSIBLE
watacooolsn: I PLAY
watacooolsn: D;
freehugsday: thus
freehugsday: you = lame
freehugsday: :D
watacooolsn: no..
watacooolsn: you ARE LAME
watacooolsn: because your own fam ditched you!
freehugsday: ........
freehugsday: touche...
freehugsday: .......jerk.

watacooolsn: :D

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freehugsday: entertain me
freehugsday: now
freehugsday: please
babolat5875: i love you
babolat5875: i love everything about you
babolat5875: your sparkling eyes
babolat5875: to your soft cheeks
babolat5875: when i stroke them
babolat5875: and stare deep into your eyes
freehugsday: okay
freehugsday: that is not
freehugsday: entertaining
babolat5875: and when you blush
babolat5875: its the cutest thing in the world
freehugsday: i'm gagging
babolat5875: and when you pout
freehugsday: was that your goal
babolat5875: yeah me too
babolat5875: LOL

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teknostrider97: wow
teknostrider97: what a good girl
teknostrider97: you should...
teknostrider97: GO TO A NIGHTCLUB!
teknostrider97: YAY!
teknostrider97: or
teknostrider97: go to BUFFALO WILD WINGS!
teknostrider97: hell yes
teknostrider97: i love that place
freehugsday: I HATE MY LIFE
freehugsday: OMFFOGMOFMG
teknostrider97: i hate your life too
teknostrider97: :(
freehugsday: seriously
freehugsday: like THIS is the perfect time
freehugsday: for a boyfriend
freehugsday: or girlfriend
freehugsday: and it's like
freehugsday: omfg
freehugsday: n/a
teknostrider97: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
teknostrider97: yah
teknostrider97: you've had 7 hours
teknostrider97: to do whateVER
teknostrider97: comes on to your mind
freehugsday: i know...wth....
freehugsday: IT SUCKS
freehugsday: i always get a boyfriend when THERE'S NO TIME TO
freehugsday: AND THEN
freehugsday: HERE I AM
freehugsday: WITH PLENTY OF FREE TIME
freehugsday: AND WHADDYA KNOW
teknostrider97: lalala~
freehugsday: HOLY MOTHER OF GOD
freehugsday: I JUST WANT TO
freehugsday: FREAKING
freehugsday: JUMP OFF
freehugsday: THE EIFFEL TOWER
freehugsday: JUST
freehugsday: HOP
teknostrider97: woahWOAH
freehugsday: omggggg.....
teknostrider97: calm down little girly
freehugsday: I'M SERIOUSLY GOING CRAZY
freehugsday: I'VE BENE IN THIS HOUSE FOR TOO LONG
freehugsday: ugh.
freehugsday: hi.
teknostrider97: then step outside
teknostrider97: and take a walk
teknostrider97: :D
teknostrider97: and to make it more exciting
teknostrider97: just wear black
teknostrider97: so that
teknostrider97: cars can't see you
freehugsday: ...thanks...
teknostrider97: yah anytime

Day 6 — A stranger

Dear Stranger,

If there is a list of things you should know about me, it's that:

- I'm a bubbly person

- I like to make people smile or laugh...a lot!

- I will get a smile out of you.

- I'm not picky about who my friends are...(I think.)

- I'm quite conceited enough to say that no matter who you are, you will end up being my friend if I want you to be my friend. :DDD

The end!

XOXO,

J

Day 5 — Your dreams

Dear dreams,

I once thought you impossible, but now I believe that

with God's help and a bit more hard work,

I can achieve you after all.

Yours truly,

J

my friends...are the best.

What is up with today's conversations...LOL:

jen10v3y0u: [Offline IM sent 9s ago] omg I can't believe we've never done anything like that together
freehugsday: I KNOW
freehugsday: -_-
freehugsday: sorry about that random signo off thing
freehugsday: so we better ride bart together
freehugsday: hehe
freehugsday: and go to sf ,3
freehugsday: <3
jen10v3y0u: yes
jen10v3y0u: omg please yes
jen10v3y0u: ahhahsgshhajajahsjsj
freehugsday: we ARE
freehugsday: we WILL!
jen10v3y0u: I'm so excited to see uu
freehugsday: hehe
freehugsday: I'M MORE EXCITED!!
jen10v3y0u: u havenoooo idea
freehugsday: don't be too excited hehe
freehugsday: all that's different about me is..
freehugsday: that i think my hair got longer
freehugsday: yaay..
freehugsday: -_-
jen10v3y0u: I think I'm going to 죽어
jen10v3y0u: right NOW
jen10v3y0u: thinking about seeing u
jen10v3y0u: omg I'm like jittery now
jen10v3y0u: nd I think I'm going to explode
jen10v3y0u: like 펑 터저
jen10v3y0u: RIGhT NOW
jen10v3y0u: o
jen10v3y0u: m
jen10v3y0u: g
jen10v3y0u: please shoot me right now
jen10v3y0u: ok thanks I'm done
freehugsday: HAHAHAHAHA
freehugsday: i come back to see this..
freehugsday: oh man..now I'M getting more jittery
freehugsday: geez i miss you so much T_____________T
freehugsday: SHEKKI thanks a lot
freehugsday: now i'll be thinking about you when i'm at summer retreat
freehugsday: and i'm supposed to be thinking about GOD!
freehugsday: THANKS A LOT
freehugsday: LOL
freehugsday: <3333333333333
jen10v3y0u: oh I better go apologize to god for u now
jen10v3y0u: hahaa
freehugsday: yeah, please pray and repent
freehugsday: loll :-P
jen10v3y0u: ok i legitly feel homosexual right now
jen10v3y0u: just the fact that I'm soo fucking
jen10v3y0u: excited about seeing you
freehugsday: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
freehugsday: stop making me freaking crack up
freehugsday: LOL
freehugsday: HAHAHAHAHAHA
jen10v3y0u: ahahhahaha

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da kneees: ROFL STORY OF MY LIFE
da kneees: i love the SPEED of the animations
da kneees: HAHAHA
freehugsday: HAHAHAHA
freehugsday: YEAH LOL
da kneees: AHHAHA MK i'm gonna SHOWAH!!!
da kneees: I'LL TTYL MAH LOOOOVE :-)
da kneees: i'm glad we got to like.. renew our love today HAHAHAAH
freehugsday: NOOO hehe
freehugsday: YEAHHH <33333
freehugsday: BYEEE I LOVES YOUU
freehugsday: have fun showering!
freehugsday: lol awkwarrddd--
da kneees: AHHAHAH i'll.. think of you?
da kneees: ROFL
NO
da kneees: HAHAHHA
freehugsday: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
freehugsday: PLEASE DON'T
da kneees: i'm gonna think of my homework
freehugsday: but now that you joked about that
freehugsday: i'm pretty sure you ARE gonna think about me
freehugsday: in the shower
freehugsday: geez
freehugsday: ...
freehugsday: ....
da kneees: oh god HAHAHAHHA
freehugsday: actually please don't
freehugsday: OMGOD
freehugsday: PLEASE
freehugsday: LOLLLLL
freehugsday: HAHAHAHAH
freehugsday: ..
freehugsday: seriously..
da kneees: XD XD AHAAAHA
freehugsday: OMG
freehugsday: "I JUST WANNA BE LESBIAN, GODDAMNIT!" LOL
freehugsday: HAHAHAH
freehugsday: okay.
freehugsday: go take your shower now.
freehugsday: bye.
freehugsday: <
freehugsday: 3
da kneees: ........................................
da kneees: i'll take a BATH
da kneees: THERE
freehugsday: ...............
da kneees: HAH
freehugsday: GOOD
freehugsday: BETTER
da kneees: problem solved
freehugsday: LOL
freehugsday: BYEEE
freehugsday: HAHA
da kneees: :-D
da kneees: BYE!
freehugsday: :-P PP
freehugsday: <3
da kneees: ~~~
freehugsday: LOL
da kneees: NO MORE LET ME BE CLEAN
da kneees: HAHAH

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Dear Kris...

(There's so many things to say...)

Sometimes I swear I hate you.

And sometimes you're the most adorable thing in the whole wide world.

But through thick and thin, you know I'll always love you.

First and foremost,

thanks for taking my Doraemon underwear. I didn't even get to wear it once. I personally think it looks better on my butt, but I guess you can keep it now.

I have to honestly say you suck at math. And it makes me so mad when I have to teach you.

Thanks for being a little angel when I got my wisdom teeth out...I love how when I woke up from being knocked out, I opened my eyes to see that you had left a bell and a message on a sticky-pad saying "Ring this bell whenever you need anything. Love ya, sis!" It really touched my heart...and I seriously had this huuuge smile on, even with my bloated cheeks...

Thanks for listening to my guy problems, except I don't bother telling you anymore because you suck at giving guy advice, and I feel weird asking you for relationship advice when you're freaking 5 years younger than me... -_-.

I don't like it when you punch me in the car whenever you see a volkswagen buggy, and you scream in my ear, "BLUE/WHITE/RED/SILVER PUNCHBUGGY, NO PUNCH-BACKS!"

Thanks for always being silent whenever I pointed at a celebrity's picture and asked you, "Who's prettier, me or her?"

I don't like it when you use my shampoo.

I also like how you've never once stepped into my room after I made a rule like 2 years ago saying, "Whenever you're in my territory, I get to slap you until you leave."

I don't like how you always DO go in my room whenever I'm not home though.

I hate how you always fart and burp around me. Especially when you do those silent farts and you don't tell me and I freaking die like 3 seconds later. Sometimes I feel like I have a brother instead of a little sister.

I like how when you used to play violin, whenever mommy was out at Costco and she came back, we'd always lie for each other, saying that the other had practiced violin / cello...when in reality we had just gone on the computer or watched a t.v. show or something.

I really dislike how you always copy whatever I do...

I love how when we're with each other, we can make each other laugh so hard...and I like how we always dance and sing at home when there's nobody but just us.

No matter how many little cute kids I see, and no matter how many of those cute kids I hug, and no matter how many times I tell you that you're not cute at all,

you'll always be my number one cutie, :).

I will love you forever and ever and ever and ever,

J

Day 3 — Your parents

Dear parents,

First of all...

Thank you so, so much for putting up with such an ingrate as your eldest daughter...

There's an interminable number of burdens and hardships I put on you two, yet you guys have always been so patient. By introspect, I repeatedly realize time and time again that I'm seriously not a worthy daughter, sometimes not even a worthy human being...

Having to put up with my constant mood swings, looking over my faults, and always worrying if I'm okay...

Mommy and daddy, you guys are seriously...super-beings.

The wise say that there's no love like a parent's love, and of course, they're right.

I could say so much, but you guys already know my unspoken words without me having to voice them...

I love you, and again, thank you.

Love,

J