NARI, WTF I called dibbs on him first! You ddong shekki! >:(

Hahhaha

An interview with God.

Man: What surprises you most about humankind?

God: That they get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be children again. That they lose their health to make money and then lose their money to restore their health. That by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present, such that they live in neither the present nor the future. That they live as if they will never die and die as though they had never lived.

haha, ♡
ahhhhhhhhhhhha;lskdfj you've stolen my heart!! :))))))

Is it too much to ask for, when all I want is someone to hold me close and let me cry out my sorrows, and in their heart know that even though I say "I'm fine," they know that I'm not?

With Nari--

: i wonder where our soulmates are
: do you believe in soulmates?
; I KNOW
: i genuinely do!
: i believe God made our other half
; i guess
: somewhere..
; WHERE IS HE

; i know

; right?

; i really want him right now

; hahah

----

With _--

: I've always honestly believed somewhere out there, there will be that someone...

: but I'm just afraid that I wont be able to find him..ever.

: Then what do you think will happen?

: I mean, how do you know the difference between love and infatuation? Isn't that the problem of today's society?

; I honestly don't know. We're too young to be discussing this

; This is exactly why nobody can say life is easy.

: I hate love

; Don't you think that's too much of an oxymoron?

: Haha. Just a little?

; Someone once told me that if you look up only at God, then one day God will make it so that your soulmate who was also only looking up at Him will crash right into you :) heh isn't that sweet?

: That's cute...but what if your soulmate isn't Christian?

; ...Let's go to bed.

As I was reading Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell, I noticed how the definition of a "self-fulfilling prophecy" intrigued me since, well, Gladwell was talking about the way Canadians select hockey players, but in my perspective, it defined liars.

"...what the sociologist Robbert Merton famously called a 'self-fulfilling prophecy'--a situation where 'a false definition, in the beginning...evokes a new behavior which makes the original false conception come true.'"

Perhaps I thought of liars because of that...so-called-friend that's been like an irksome bug in my thoughts.

Psychology / sociology blows my mind.

내 머리에서 좀 나가줘, 니 생각하기 싫으니까

What if, what if, what if?

The possibilities were—and are—endless.

So grateful to have such loving friends...what would I do without you guys?

Thanks L 언니 for listening to me rant just now.

Additional thanks to J 오빠 for sending me this lovely "letter":

Dear J. here you are, trippin balls at 11:34pm to me. oh poor me. im so innocent, yet im being attacked by your "HOLY FUCK"s. haha its okay. you are my sistahhh from anotha mothaaa so i can take some of your crap, i guess. um. well...life is not all about studying and college. i know our asian ways make us feel that way, but it's really not. we face obstacles in life, of course. who doesnt? but it's important to overcome those obstacles...but sometimes, we need to dodge it as well. u know why? cuz they're OBSTACLES. okay anyways. what i'm trying to say is. dont worry too much on what is in front of you, but look at the big picture. you're 16. almost 17? and you're still in high school. im sitting here preparing to go to las po. you have like a 4.0 or whatnot. and decent SAT. and you're boss status at essays and your big vocabulary dominates my urbandictionary vocabulary.
um so try to think about your future, not what's RIGHT in front of you
life isnt a raceeee dear j.
you have solid grades
you're a good girl, and you're a nice girl.
i guess rely on PRAYER as pastor jason would say...
and dont worry too much about academics.
if you try your best, it's not your fault if you dont get wher you dont want to.
there's always 2nd chances in life as well.
and korean parents? korean rules? korean expectations? seriously, fuck it. as long as you did your best, you acn't really change the outcome by worrying the SHIT out of everything at night u know?
=]


Hahahaha, ohh man. Thanks for being the bolster I needed, :)

But what's truthfully always nagging me is that,

I just want to live up to my full potential. That's all.

"I stopped believing in promises, because they were never kept.

I stopped believing in what I heard, because I never saw it.

I stopped believing in forever, because everything ends.

I stopped believing that there was a little truth in a lie, because a lie will always be a lie.

I just... stopped believing."

Over

Last day is finally over.

I'll miss the seniors so, so much...

I'm upset that I kept forgetting to bring my yearbook to school so I barely got any yearbook signs from my senior friends... alskdjfl;asdjfl;asdfj.

But I'm thankful for the four I managed to get:

J.

I love giving you rides after orchestra thingies. You are one cool kid and I'm glad I met you this year. I really like how you are nice to me even though I am mean to you, even though I don't really mean it. I will miss you. I'll probably never see you again.

Love, Sterling

Hello Ms. J,

We've gone through quite a lot these past few years. From failing honors trig to driving you to see your friend, I have to say that I'm going to miss you next year (yet not over summer b/c we're hanging out, right?) Thank you for not being a bitch like most of your friends (HAHA) and definitely keep in touch so I get to hear you rap to epik high or whatever again LOL. See you around!

-Chris

P.S. When is free hugs day?

Dear Mr. J,

It was nice to know you this year. Before, I've always known you as D.C.'s cousin. Now I know you as J. You're not bad, for a Korean. That was supposed to be a nice comment. Bio and Stat have been so gay. Have fun being a senior next year.

Don't fail.

- Wayne

PS. Doubt I'll see you again, but maybe.

J!

It has been an absolute pleasure chatting with you about nonsensical issues everyday in Speech and Debate. You are awesome to talk to and you are super legit in my opinion. Have an awesome year and make sure you apply to Brown. Keep in touch and I'll be sure to say hello when I see you next year when I visit.

Stay chill and don't get in trouble.

-Hao

Reading these senior autograph signs nearly made me cry...

asl;kdf.

I love you, seniors! Have fun...but not too much fun, so you remember to visit. Hehe.

Hope to see you guys in the near future... :')

I have so many questions;

I want to find people who have answers.