Relate.

The physical pain I feel is nothing compared to how I feel inside.

Hell.

Everything stopped when my mind earnestly examined the deep darkness concerning heaven and hell that seemed to overwhelm everything else, and for the first time, it was baffled, at a loss, groping for thoughts to connect it with other things relative to it; the future was all that mattered- the present was going to be the formless past in a matter of time- it trembled at the thought of being a worthless existence of a mere thing amid the black chaos that swallowed everything around it...an unfathomable and interminable black sea.